fat bird skinny puppy

It's only a month since I was weighed in RH hospital (just before hitting the departure lounge - when the F*** did it happen that Hospitals began to think they were akin to Airports? We'd sure not pay for some of the flights!) and I've lost one stone and 3 pounds. This is soley down to the great pain fear and cutting out fried food, cheese, (everything dairy EXCEPT products made with skimmed milk), eggs, red-meat, take-aways and high fat convenience foods er which is all convenience foods (even pre-packed 'healthy meals'tuna and pasta and salad seem to gain an unseemly 15grams of fat in the packaging process), oh yes and chocolate, (yup I want pity). Basically anything with more than 3.6 grams of fat per 100grams IS OUT. Obviously I've consumed my weight in fruit and veg (but not avocado). The first couple of weeks were hell. But I choose something else... I realise now how very addicted to food I am. It's definately much easier now, but those first 2 weeks were so difficult I'd almost describe it as painful, even being in the same room with people eating my typical food craving stuff, crisps, pizza, chips, even a shop bought ready-made sandwich would stir me into a junkie-esque turmoil! It's hard to explain to someone who hasn't used eating as an emotional crutch just how frustrating it is, and the feeling of being hijacked by desire one can feel. OUT OF CONTROL. Feeling good for eating better, though that is no great suprise is it? ;-). Even been for a (ok shortish) walk down by the Rodley canal today, ankle a bit sore/stiff now but I'm starting to feel i have thigh muscles once more.

Main fistula vein blew the other day and has now developed into small haematoma but apparently that's not all bad as it 'toughens them up'. Managing to stick religiously to a 3 times a week Factor 8/ Haemate P 3000units prophylasis regime, bear with me I'm new to all this. I'm still at the stage where I feel I should get a lollipop or a gold star on the calendar for each attempt! My ALT (in liver function tests is still abnormal but greatly reduced from previous tests) at 55 (normal is less than 35), it was previously 165(!). Bilirubin is back within regular reference range but I'd figured that as my poo is now poo coloured again and occaisonally my wee isn't the colour of British Rail tea. TMI I know, hell, that's my life.

I have tickets for Skinny Puppy in Manchester next week :) *bounce*