give me some of that stuff, give me some

Jae glad you are ok. Get Well bloody Soonish to Ros too!

I've upped my anti-depressants again and seem to be coping a bit better yesterday and today. The anxiety is subsiding. Yay! To keep blondelass happy I shall mention that I'm paid up to go to Whitby Golf W/E, FOR THE WEEK(23-30April) staying with Linzi, Mike and Ian. I won't be buying a Spa ticket and will probably do a lot of cheap things like lone picnics on the moors ;). There's still a single bed spare in Ian's room if anyone's interested in sharing, but best you clear it with him first?! I'm really looking forward to a holiday but cacking myself about money as I drop hours and my pay will be less than £600 for the next 2 months :-/. To that end I'm back on a diet (low fat/high fibre) and also I can't bear feeling this unhealthy any longer, though the price of bog-roll could be prohibitive!

Today I tried to apply for a replacement driving license and failed, the website said they took Visa and Electron, yet alas DON'T take Visa Electron :-/. I did manage to do 10mins on the exercise bike and re-apply for tax credits though. I've also suceeded in chucking outa bin liner full of clutter per day so far. Whilst rooting through clothes I that havent seen the light of day for years I found a cardigan I was fond of in 1992(which hasn't been worn since 1993) and a pvc corset dress I have no recollection of owning! I AM A HOARDER! This will sound like a crazy tick list to persons without mental ill health but for me is quite an achievement as life often baffles me to fuck.

ION: Why oh why did I think a fringe was a good idea?

ok JAMC...

"I wanna die just like Jesus Christ
I wanna die on a bed of spikes
I wanna die come see paradise
I wanna die just like Jesus Christ

I wanna die just like JFK
I wanna die on a sunny day
I wanna die just like JFK
I wanna die in the USA"

Reverence - The Jesus and Mary Chain

I wanna die having heard J and W Reid bros! This song particularly drove my Jim Reid tied to a stake blow-job fantasies! Even though we were on the balcony in the distance this song came on and I was real gone, the East Kilbride lads still have the magic. Jim's still svelte as a rake and Williams still gone a fuzz of backcombed curly mop ala Robert Smith. They did all the old stuff and I now feel complete :). They didn't fight. They didn't smash it up after 30 mins. They didn't insult the audience.

(I'm knee deep in myself but I wanna get more of that stuff)

I apologise if I've become even quieter than ever on posting but especially comments, my persona is in meltdown. I'm still reading and enjoying you though.